December 2017

Feeling guilty for being happy?

Do you ever feel guilty for being happy when there is so much sadness around you? I watch the news and am horrified and saddened by what’s happening abroad and in America.  I listen to the stories of suffering right here in our community with people losing their jobs and trying to figure out how they will take care of their family. Some had to kick off a new project, others were lucky enough to find employment that fit them well.

I watch the news and heart sinks but then I turn off the TV and start making dinner for my family.  By the time we’re sitting around the table and having dinner, I’ve pretty much forgotten the misery that a mere hour ago had infested my heart.

Now I’m playing with my little boys and making them laugh by making silly faces.  After dinner, we run around and play tag and all fall on the floor in a pile of giggles.

But after the kids are asleep and my head hits the pillow, my mind goes back briefly to the sad news I heard earlier in the day and I feel both sad and grateful.  Sad that there is so much suffering and hardship in the world but grateful that I can protect my children from it, for now.